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Sequential Artist Extraordinaire
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[Jul. 6th, 2009|06:38 pm] |
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I can't wait until they fucking finish the 95 construction. I must waste 10 hours of my life each week just sitting in traffic. |
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[Jun. 14th, 2009|12:27 pm] |
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I'm convinced that if I had a dog around all the time, life would be darn near perfect. :) |
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[May. 23rd, 2009|06:35 pm] |
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Feeling better about myself and life in general.
I can do this. |
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[May. 16th, 2009|07:05 pm] |
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Well it's done. I moved out today after packing my life up in cardboard boxes and leaving what I've known for the past two and a half years. I am doing my best to think of other things and to keep myself busy and optimistic. That's hard considering all I want to do is crawl up in bed and sob. I hate this "woe is me" attitude I've got right now - but even thought this was my decisions I feel I still need to grieve the ending of this relationship.
Everyone has been extremely supportive and I'm overwhelmed and eternally grateful for their help and kind words. I am in limbo currently, and I hate it. I HATE not being in control, not knowing what I'm going to be doing or where I'll be. Some people thrive on that sort of thing, but I don't. I also hate needing help and leaning on others for support., because I feel like a mooch. Everyone assures me that is not mooching if it's offered. The only plan I have at this point is to stay at my parents house for now, with all of my possessions in the basement and in boxes, and stay at a friend's house during the work week. I don't want to be a house guest forever though because that's rude. I intend on paying for food and helping with the electric bill if it turns out I'm there more often than I come home. I used to feel so independent. Now I realize I never was. I simply traded my dependency on my parents for a dependency on John. Now I'm right back where I started. I have lost my friend in the process and I am alone again. I feel like I'm at the lowest point in my life right now.
Aren't these supposed to be the best years of your life? :( |
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| Spring! |
[Apr. 19th, 2009|10:09 am] |
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I went to Walmart the other day because we seem to go through body wash at light speed and I wanted to get a hot oil treatment for my frizzy fro. I ended up in the gardening section, drawn in by the bright flowers and that wonderful smell of fresh earth. As I was perusing the rows and rows of potted plants and those six-packs of seedlings, I reminisced about the days I would spend with my grandmother and aunt in their various gardens, plucking weeds and arranging mulch.
My grandmother had tons and tons of daffodils, of all different colors, in the long garden that followed the length of the driveway up to her house. I love daffodils and when I saw a cluster of them sitting all by their lonesome for .50 each, I had to pluck them up. I also got a .50 hyacinth. I'm no gardener, my green thumb is pretty much a yellow, dried out looking thing, but damn if I'm not going to try. I bought a pot and a bag of potting soil and planted all four bulbs in it when I got home. They smell so nice! They need a full 8 hours of sunlight a day though, and we barely get 4 in any spot in our apartment. I do have a lamp at work that has the full spectrum of light (so says the packaging) and I had originally bought it to help a plant I have on my desk to grow. Now it's a behemoth and I'm told spider-plants can grow in the most inhospitable places for the most non-gardener type people on the planet, so I'm considering bringing that home and letting them bask in that when the sun creeps too far around the side of our building?
Oh well. Even if they don't survive I'm happy for now. They smell like fond memories and fun summers spent running around outside. |
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| Iron Man |
[Apr. 4th, 2009|01:23 pm] |
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Carries an Iron Man lunchbox.
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| Cracked Humor |
[Mar. 16th, 2009|08:06 pm] |
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http://www.cracked.com/article_17142_5-ways-common-sense-lies-you-everyday.html
"You don't need us to point out examples of hypocrisy, from cops who won't write traffic tickets to other cops, to politicians who talk about how important the public school system is while putting their own kids in a exclusive private schools. What's interesting is how everyone excuses it in their own mind. You can't find anyone who simply says, "The rules don't apply to us because we're awesome!" Thanks to Special Pleading, there are elaborate mental gymnastics that happen inside them that eliminate even their feelings of guilt. And the thing is, sometimes they're right; you did call your boss a motherfucker because you were having a bad day. You do have bad habits due to your childhood upbringing. You were abrupt with your girlfriend because you were running late. But what's strange is we don't let anyone else have those excuses. The girl behind the counter at Starbucks wasn't rude because she was having a bad day. She's just a bitch. The kid at Best Buy wasn't just clueless about the return policy, he was intentionally evil and trying to steal your money. Some of us have held grudges for years, based on actions by someone else that we've forgiven ourselves for doing countless times. They might as well call it the "This Is Why The World Seems to be Full of Dicks" fallacy." |
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| Watchmen |
[Mar. 7th, 2009|06:46 pm] |
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I just got back from a grand day. First John and I got to tour Raven's stadium and walk on the field! It was awesome and I took a million pictures. Then we went to go see Watchmen. I'm not in the mood to write a lengthy review, so I'll just sum up:
1) Blue peen is not all that shocking, people. With all the gratuitous tits and ass we see in almost every other movie made these days, I'm surprised that you're surprised. Get over it.
2) I've come to the conclusion that sex scenes make people laugh in movie theaters because they're uncomfortable with the idea of watching it on a big screen in a room full of complete strangers rather than the comfort of their own home with their hand down the pants.
3) I think the actor that played Rorschach looks like Clint Eastwood's younger brother. You know, if he had one.
4) Nite Owl was nerdy and pudgy and cute. Aw.
5) Do not like Ozymandias or his big hair.
6) Do like the use of musical influence in certain scenes.
7) This movie deserves a second viewing.
Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah now it's time to download my pictures from the day.
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| <3 Birthday Joy |
[Feb. 19th, 2009|07:29 pm] |
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John got me another 22" flat screen monitor for my desk ensemble! @_@ Its so beautiful.
Now my sixty pound hunk of prehistoric monitor can go to a good cause - beside the dumpster with a "Take Me I Still Work" note on it's frame, or perhaps dad can find a use for it's parts.
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[Jan. 31st, 2009|11:59 pm] |
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Driving home from a particularly nice dinner date, I commented on John's driving habits, particularly his penchant for speeding.
"I don't speed, I drive with a purpose!" was his response.
I'm curious to know what a cop might say to this if he ever got pulled over and was sassy enough to spring that explanation. |
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| If I were smart... |
[Jan. 25th, 2009|04:24 pm] |
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...I'd turn this into a sketch journal and draw about whatever I wanted to say instead of recounting it with just words.
I've added some artsy folk who do just that for inspiration - surrounding myself with proof that it can be done if I'd stop being so damn lazy. |
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| Ghosts |
[Jan. 23rd, 2009|08:19 pm] |
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I hardly ever see whatever it is people point out in ghost photographs until I read the description and go "Oh....yeah, I guess that little smudge there looks kinda like a face..." If I can look at the photo and see something weird (or, in some cases, over-exposure or photoshop work) without prompting, then I might be intrigued.
I haven't found any decent ghost pictures in a while. I was watching Paranormal State earlier and they caught what appeared to be a human head ducking out of the video camera's frame into the darkness as the camera panned. It was startling and if you didn't know it was supposed to be a 'ghost' film, you might assume it's just someone who realized they were in frame and ducked out again.
Weird! :) I want to go ghost-hunting with my new camera. |
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[Jan. 22nd, 2009|06:47 pm] |
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I'm finding out just how hard it is to do everything on my new year's resolution list all at once. And it's only January 22nd. Being social is fun, but it sure makes it hard to watch my spending. Exercising is fun and good for me, but I get home so late I don't have time for the artwork. There must be a better way to manage!
I should have resolved to find an extra couple hours in the day.
Also I am going to use a set of Crest Whitestrips. The problem with having a new camera is that I can see what I look like compared to everyone else. And Jesus CHRIST are my teeth yellow. :( |
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| Take that, triceps. |
[Jan. 13th, 2009|08:39 pm] |
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So I started going to the gym. Well, okay, today was my first trip. I went with Kristine at work, and our goal is 3 times a week. We'll see just how well we can keep up with it. She'd like to lose some weight and I'd like to get toned and not huff and puff and pant all the way up our 3 flights of stairs.
Now of course I realize I need a gym bag and some shorts and those pants you can snap on and off. And a keychain bungee thing to put around my wrist so I can carry the key for the lock I have to buy to put on the locker where I'll put my gym bag! Eeeesh, all this just to work out. And it's kind of far enough away from work that I can foresee myself coming up with excuses not to go. Well not too far, its just that the traffic makes it seem longer.
Anyway. We both did a mile on the elipticals and then did the 30 minute weight room work out where you hit up all 10 or so machines and do maybe 15 reps on each one, then we did about a 1/2 mile on the treadmill. Not a strenuous workout, but considering I haven't touched any gym equipment since college...I think I'll start slow. |
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| Old! |
[Jan. 12th, 2009|10:42 pm] |
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I have gray hairs.
Gray hairs! I've never noticed before because I routinely dye my hair red. But the last time I did that was weeks and weeks ago...now I see my natural color showing through. And to my horror - gray hairs! Everywhere! My mother went entirely gray at 21 and has been dying her hair ever since. I suppose I should consider myself lucky.
My mortality is becoming louder with each passing year!
Good thing I have a hair appointment scheduled for this Saturday. |
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[Jan. 8th, 2009|09:52 pm] |
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Well, so far my resolutions are still mainly just resolutions on a list on the wall.
1) Exercise
2) Draw
3) Website
4) Murphy's Law
5) Reconnect
I don't expect to get through them all in a week, a month, or even a few months, but the goal is to work on them all over a period of time. So far the only one I've made a dent in is the "reconnect" resolution - taking every opportunity to go out with friends and have a good time.
I still need to fit exercise in the schedule, which I think I'd like to do as a first thing in the morning routine. Its pretty much impossible to do during the week so I'll have to start with Saturdays in the little gym we have in the neighborhood. When it gets warmer I'll be able to take walks around the neighborhood (oh how I would love to have a dog to go with me!!!).
I'll admit I've started The Sopranos since my aunt and uncle loaned it to us, and we burned through season one in just over a week. I really like the show but it's really cutting into time I could be using to draw. Perhaps just one episode a night and then I spend time with the sketchbook.
The website I'm actually waiting on John for, I need him to see what can be done with Flash in order to really get a move-on with the site.
Murphy's Law is simply being translated over from my written scribbles to a typed format and I'm redrawing all the pages. Yes, redrawing ALL the pages. This time around I'm going to do the whole shebang properly. Pencil the pages, let them sit a few days for reviews, then edits, then inking with crowquill and brush, then lettering and word balloons in Illustrator. This will be the final version, something I can be proud to have finished so I can move onto other story ideas simmering in my sketchbook. I love the Murphy's Law story, but damnit, it needs to get done so that muse can be placated!
Tomorrow is happy hour after work, then Saturday @ 4pm is the Ravens vs. Titans which I'll be watching with Kristine, Amanda, and Michelle and her friends at her house. Sunday will be a day for laundry and drawing/script typing. This coming Wednesday is a movie night with the girls, and then Saturday I'm planning to do a lunch date with my aunt and later that night John's friend is having a party.
Also, started seeing someone to help with a particular problem that's been plaguing me for a while now - I think that is going to go very well. :)
I feel good. I want to hang onto that feeling for as long as possible. I know days down in the dumps are unavoidable, but my plan is to dig myself out of those the moment I realize I'm in one, instead of lingering there and feeling sorry for myself. For me, that's akin to moving mountains.
Just watched Hancock, thought it was a really good movie. It was different than I expected, and I liked the idea that superheroes are more like hold overs from the days when the gods were the center of ancient man's world.
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